Almost twelve months ago I remember feeling rather stuck. In circumstances, by being at a crossroads, by being so very needed, by a lack of free time and not enough sleep hours in a row...
I had all these dreams and hopes and so very much I wanted to do. I made lists and brainstormed visions that felt dreamy, new, bright. {And unachievable}.
When I checked in with my heart I heard the words: today will make you stronger for tomorrow.
So I listened a little more. And my heart told me to go slowly, to take one little step at a time. And that it was okay for that one tiny step to take me days {or weeks}.
My heart said to listen to my heart. And that there is time and space for all I want to do. {Just not all at once}.
My heart said to enjoy the journey. {And not rush to the end}.
My heart spoke in soft slow whispers, in truths and reminders. To be more gentle on myself, to stop and be still, to open my eyes softly and to see gratitude and love in my every day.
My heart said I was doing a good job. {And that everything would be okay}.
My heart said to listen for words of wisdom. To bid fear goodbye.
I listened to my heart's words for a long while, and then decided to give myself 28 days of just being.
So I ignored my to-do list {what I thought I should be doing} and spent time just being instead. 28 days of it.
I gave thanks. I played with my girls. I took the day by moments and tried not to watch the clock. I relaxed. I began to feel free. I practised yoga with a little girl copying me and a baby giggling as I tickled her in between poses.
In those days I tried not to think about my dreams and visions, and the journey to there that I so wanted to be on.
I reminded myself often it was just 28 days in so many.
Each day I journaled, and asked my heart what makes it sing. And in just being I found clarity and that living in the moment (not miles ahead) was where I truly wanted to be all along.
I came to see that each day is filled with opportunity. For wonder, gratitude, laughter, happiness, dreaming and planning too.
Today I realised I'm on that journey I was longing for almost 12 months ago.
Today I realised life offers me an abundance of opportunities every day.
Right now I'm writing and creating and working on projects I've dreamed {and feared} about starting. I'm mothering with my heart, and learning so much every day from my girls and growing as I do.
And while there's still so much to be done, I'm grateful to be amidst it all. Enjoying the journey, and knowing little by little my ideas will see a today.
xx
~ Linking with Maxabella for the 52 Weeks of Grateful x
Are you on a journey? Are you grateful to be on your way? And do you listen to your heart? x
Oh Elisa, this is just so absolutely lovely and inspiring. thank you for brightening my day in such a wonderful way. xo
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ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful post, Elisa. I know the crossroads that you speak of, and only hope I find this type of clarity and peace as I continue on my journey. X
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautiful Elisa - those words are just the loveliest. How wonderful that you took those 28 days to be and journey in that being. You are amazing and totally beautiful. xxx
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post xx
ReplyDeleteElisa, sometimes it's just the hardest to slow down and "be". Listening to your heart leads you to the purest conclusion, but we don't always have the courage to do this. So lovely to read this beautiful post. xx
ReplyDeleteElisa, you've said it perfectly!!!! xxoo
ReplyDeleteI agree with the other commenters, beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post Elisa! I have had conversations like that a lot lately, I find myself wanting to do so much (just for myself), but not having the time, or other things have cropped up needing my attention. I like the idea of letting go, not worrying about my 'to-do-list' and just 'being', sounds wonderful.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you made a start on your journey. xx
Lovely post, very wise words! EI've learnt this week to get out of my head so I can listen to my heart. x
ReplyDeleteThese are just such beautiful words x
ReplyDeletebeautiful hon - a lovely journey to today
ReplyDeleteBeautiful Elisa! I am glad you "wrote from the heart". Zanni xx
ReplyDeleteYou write so beautifully, saying a lot without too many words! xxx
ReplyDeleteSlowing down and enjoying the journey is so much more important than the destination, I've come to realise that, too, in the last 12 months or so. And it has been unfolding perfectly, all in its own time. All the best with your projects!
ReplyDeleteLovely Elisa. You are so very clever and in tune with your body and soul, to be able to do that. So many of us DON'T do that... and should. I always try to tell myself that Life is Beautiful... I love that simple saying... because it is and it is most definitely what we make of it xo
ReplyDeletethis is such a beautiful and inspiring post. ill definitely come back to read it on my down days. lots of love xxx
ReplyDeleteHi Elisa, I just wanted to let you know how much I have enjoyed reading your heartfelt and beautifully written posts. You not only write beautifully but you take the time to read other people's writing and comment on it which is also appreciated. I have therefore nominated you for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award which you can read about by going to my post on it http://bookgirloz.wordpress.com/2013/03/18/very-inspiring-blogger-award-nomination-yeehah/ if you would like . Thanks again, Erin x
ReplyDeleteinspirational indeed!
ReplyDeleteYou are a delight and an inspirational tale right there. How beautiful..xxx
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I love reading your posts SO much. Love. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is extremely beautiful, and so very inspiring Elisa.
ReplyDeleteRonnie xo
Elisa you are so wise, your words so deep and meaningful. I think I need to try and be still some more, to really be in the moment especially with my girls. Thank you for always sharing your journey with us and in turn inspiring us all. x
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