Big breaths have been taken this past week.
Because I'm trying my very best to get in some full nurturing breaths and create some extra comfort for me and room in this fast growing belly for baby.
Because focusing on my breath reminds me to slow.
Because I can't seem to schedule a yoga class this pregnancy, despite plenty of trying. And breathing is my favourite part of yoga.
Because we let go of our little girl that little bit extra this week and watched her dance on into her prep classroom, eager as ever for school to begin. There were no tears from her, and no tears from me but the letting go certainly stung a little.
Big breaths too because seeing her off to school saw me consumed by anxiety at the very last minute. Because what if I hadn't given her enough, shown her enough, taught her enough, been there enough... so many what ifs filled my head one sleepless night. And then early in the morning sleep finally arrived, as I comforted myself in the thought that I probably wasn't alone in feeling this way and remembered I've loved her as much as my whole heart can love, and isn't love always enough?
More big breaths to come this next week as miss three sets off for kindergarten. And with both my babes busy learning and having fun for five hours one day a week I plan on carving out a little time each morning before I get stuck into work that involves breathing, and pretty much nothing else. A few minutes where it's just me, the sound of the waves, time to just be and time to connect with baby. Creating space to slow, to tune in, to love. Creating space and joy.
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Wishing you nurturing breaths this week, and the next. Has this week been filled with starting something new for you too? x
~ Love that my hubby captured this image of me and my big girl on her first school morning. We had plenty of smiling photos. And then when I thought he had stopped snapping, she turned to me with a big hug: "Today is soooo exciting Mummy."
Beautiful photo!
ReplyDeleteLove is absolutely enough but it's sometimes hard not to worry. I'm hoping you're able to make those 5 hours each week just what you need. Xx
Love is always enough Elisa! I found the breathing part of yoga was a perfect way for me to slow down and focus on myself for a few minutes. Sounds like a great way to connect with your baby :)
ReplyDeleteYahoo! It's a marvellous day when they stretch out those wings we've so carefully helped them craft and head off to see if they can really fly. x
ReplyDeleteBeautiful photo. Never alone in those thoughts, we all have them. And I agree, love is enough. xo
ReplyDeleteIt's a gorgeous photo Elisa, a special moment captured! I had the same 'what ifs' when Popette started Kindy last year. I hope your big girl enjoyed her first day and enjoys many more! Cherub had her first day of preschool last week and loves it. No tears, no last minute "Mumma I want you". It kinda made me said that she was so happy but I'm also glad that she is happy and has fun. Its a hard thing letting them go. xx
ReplyDeleteSo happy your hubby captured this moment and how wonderful tha she was focused on how exciting it was. I hope you all have a great transition as I know how big this year is for you lovely. Always here at the end of the phone xxx
ReplyDeleteCongratulations and well done to you all. Such a big step. I am sure Elisa that your little girl is very well prepared. Lovely photo. Thank you for your kind words on my last post. Much love xxoo
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, love is always enough! xo
DeleteBeautiful photos and I can absolutely relate to the sleepless night before the first day of school and the anxious feeling as a mama xx
ReplyDeleteWe started four year old kinder this week but I got to breath easy as Little Vick had been there for 3 year old kinder so he was right at home. Next year will be a big step when he starts school. I'm sure I will experience that anxiety that you described.
ReplyDeleteSending big, calming breaths your way. Congrats on letting your little one into the world of school. That's still ahead for me. Gah.
ReplyDeleteI feel like I am starting something new every week at the moment but I too have had one starting prep and one starting daycare. Very deep breaths happening here
ReplyDeleteHope it's all going ok and that you're breathing more easily
ReplyDeleteLove is enough
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I hope you are all doing well and that school has been smooth sailing for your little one and you too. And that you are enjoying some time to yourself each week and nurturing you before your little one arrives. Take care. Beautiful photo of you and your little girl and I love how excited she sounded, such a blessing. xxx
ReplyDeleteBeautiful photo xx
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